THE FLUSH · LISTEN IF YOU’RE CURIOUS
A little space.
A little listening.
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01 · THE GLANCE
My beanbag.
An unlikely laboratory.
I was sitting in my beanbag chair, thinking about my recurring back pain. I glanced at the anatomy posters on my wall. There, in the spinal deformities panel, was the illustration of scoliosis.
Whoa. That’s how my back FEELS it’s shaped.
That was the spark. One glance at the wall, and my curiosity was off and running.
I don’t know that I have scoliosis. I don’t think I’d be diagnosed with it. Recognising a feeling in a drawing doesn’t tell me what my spine is doing. That takes a proper assessment.
What I did recognise was a sense of leaning. Bracing. Carrying. And I wanted to spend a little time with that.
02 · DING DING DING
The book.
The very familiar feelings.
I looked up the scoliosis entry in Metaphysical Anatomy by Evette Rose. A lot of the emotional themes landed: carrying weight that didn’t feel like mine, feeling caught between two people I love who didn’t always get along, and bracing for the “but” after a “good job.”
Ding. Ding. Ding.
I’ve recognised some of that bracing in a past relationship too. I’m not pointing fingers. People were doing their best. I can look kindly at them and still get curious about the patterns I learned.
The book gives me a metaphysical lens for reflection. Its emotional connections aren’t established explanations for scoliosis, and feeling seen by a passage doesn’t confirm a medical condition.
For me, it opened a useful question: what am I still carrying that I could practise putting down?
03 · FIELD NOTES, STILL WET
Something caught
my attention.
As I’m writing this, I haven’t even listened to this Flush yet. I’m already noticing tingling in my back. It feels like awareness. Maybe relief. A little sense of “oh… I hear you.”
That’s the sensation I’m noticing, and the meaning I’m giving it. It doesn’t tell me what caused it or whether anything physical has changed. I don’t need to turn it into a miracle story to be interested.
I’ve been exploring this meeting point of metaphysical ideas, music, meditation and my own body for a long time. Part of my curiosity is about feeling well, looking and feeling younger, and enjoying the body I live in. Those are hopes and personal aims, not results I can promise.
My citizen-scientist bit is the curiosity: notice something, try a gentle experiment, and stay willing to be wrong. Calling it that doesn’t make it a clinical study. The sample size is one drummer. Enthusiasm: considerable.
04 · AWARENESS → INTEGRATION
Now comes
the living-it bit.
Awareness is a start. Integration is what I do with it when I get up from the beanbag. Here’s what I’m choosing to explore. My plan, offered as a peek into my process.
Make room to listen.
I made Bent, Not Broken as a Freakquency Flush: a guided meditation with music and what I call intentionally tuned energy. I’m going to listen, meditate and see what I notice. I use “clearing” for an inner practice of letting go, without claiming a change to my spine.
The Flush and its companion material belong over at Freakquencies.
Move with a little more attention.
Stretching and yoga are on my exploration list. One reference that caught my eye is Tiryaka Janu Sirsasana, a side-bend pose from Prashanti Yoga. A video can spark a question; it can’t assess my back. Curves aren’t symmetrical, so I’d ask a physio or qualified yoga teacher what’s appropriate for me, including whether to favour a side. No forcing my body to match a thumbnail.
Choose what I let in.
Reiki and Light Language are part of my personal exploration too. I think of them as frequencies I choose to allow into my awareness and body. Consent is the key word.
Reiki is the more familiar one. Light Language, to me, feels like something old and primal that my body understands without my mind needing to translate. That’s how I experience it; I’m not making a claim about its history or a medical effect. I try not to overthink every syllable.
I’d like to care for my back and understand it better. I can’t infer from recognition, tingling or meditation that I’m preventing scoliosis. I can keep listening to myself and get proper help with the physical questions.
THE INVITATION
Curious?
Pull up a beanbag.
This is me, doing my thing. A little weird? Probably. I’m sharing more because people keep asking.
Take what serves, leave the rest. If this landed for you, send it to someone whose back carries the world.
Everyone’s mileage will vary, no guarantees. This is personal experience and creative exploration, with no claim to diagnose, prevent, treat or cure a condition.
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